Knowing all that doesn't help me write it one bit. Because no one, besides me, gives a damn about it's themes. If there's anything that reading Janet Reid's excellent blog, Query Shark, has done for me, it's drilled into my head that:
1) you never put your contact information at the beginning of an email query letter
2) you have about a sentence and a half to get the agent's attention so you better not waste time or words
3) people don't give a damn about themes when they paid for a story
So themes don't matter. Characters do. From characters come a story and that's what readers want. That's how you get published, not how you become a best-seller. Becoming a best-seller is, of course, what everyone dreams of, including me. But that's like buying a lottery ticket every week for your whole life and never losing hope that you'll win eventually. And that's damn near impossible.
I decided to completely revamp my story last night. The plot's still the same, the backbone of my main character is still the same. In fact, I can still pull the same writing exercise from November when I started NaNoWriMo and had no idea what the fuck I was doing. But the characters have changed, and that's a good thing.
I started to write last night and I have a couple hundred words of the story I always meant to tell.